Lastnights episode of Nip/Tuck was crazy! I mean I saw the setup of Christian and Liz getting together as soon as she thought she had breast cancer.
The lady using an electric knife to saw off her breast was insane! I almost wanted to vomit and my boobs hurt just watching the scene.
I wasn't surprised that Olivia died during cosmetic surgery b/c she had a premonition the day before. I was however horrified that Eden had thrown her moms ashes on Sean and Julia. What a waste!
I'm mad with comcast on demand b/c I have yet to see the third episode of the season. Maybe it's on there today so I can finally watch it.
I'm still super excited about our summer vacation and so far I've lost 7lbs in 4 days. I just hope I can keep myself motivated enough to drop down to as close to 140lbs as possible. I would say 120 and below, b/c my all time goal has always been 108lbs, but that would be way too much weight lost in 4months and 3 weeks. Basically all I've been eating everyday is a salad and fresh steamed veggies. Tons of fluids, cleaning out my overly toxic system. I'll bring meat, in small amounts, after my two week cleanse. Wish me luck!
I think my motivation will be how I can keep imagining how cute I'll be again. Wearing the fashion I love to wear and that looks good on me. I just hope I won't get stalked while on my week vacation. Yesterday when I went to take Pugsley for his morning walk some crazy person was following me in their car. He didn't actually stop and try to talk but he kept driving by really slow then drive off only to come back around from another direction and do the same thing. He did all of that at least 3 times! Once Pugsley finally took his dump I ran back to my apartment. I really hate that we live right in the heart of where the college students live. Probably some loon thinking he'd found himself a young college girl. Bleh.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Open Relationships: What's the hype?
So this blog will just be a jumble of questions and thoughts on the subject matter of open relationships.
Why is it that most couples who want to do an open relationship are high school sweethearts? In my mind I think most of those couples do the whole open relationship thing b/c they are too use to each other being in their everyday life. Also b/c they realized they have cut their partying days short by sticking to the first good relationship they thought they had. They can't imagine splitting and being happy with someone else. I also think the whole open thing sounds appealing in that situation b/c it's a way to date or fool around with someone else without having to deal with breaking up with the current/original lover and then realize that may not have been the best idea and have to come crawling back.
I suppose my whole idea on the subject is centered on the fact that people are creatures of habit and don't like being alone. They need some kind of security.
Some older couples say they do the whole open thing to spice up their life. I'm sure it does, but it still ties into my thinking of "why bother breaking up when we can just openly date others while still sleeping with each other every night?" Or... one partner thinks they can finally act out their desires without feeling bad about hurting the other one. Possibly sex is just so vanilla between the two and they just want a certain sexual need to be met without losing the qualities they like in their lover otherwise.
Possibly open relationships are formulated b/c we have two bisexual partners paired or one bisexual and one heterosexual. I mean you can think of many more factors with the make up of the relationship but you get where I'm going, right? I suppose in this situation it would appear to be good for one partner to be able to showcase their desires without feeling guilty. Or just to find sexual acceptance in how they are.
Okay. We have heard relationships becoming open just b/c the man wanted a fantasy to be filled for one night and the wife/girlfriend goes along with it to keep the man intact.
Warning signs would ring in my head if my boyfriend wanted to add another female to the equation. Not b/c I'm jealous hearted but b/c it says I'm not doing something right or maybe it's time we stop using each other as crutches and just move on. I wouldn't want to openly be in a bedroom with him and some other female. A lot goes thru my mind when I see or hear that type of stuff. Like is he asking b/c I'm lacking, is he ready to split, does he really think he can bend me(manipulate) enough to do such a thing while having his cake and eating it too? Stuff like that. See, my mind is always going!
I just texted a couple guyfriends who opinions I value to give me a bit of input on their thinking of the subject. The question was worded as such: I need a guys input on why you would want an open relationship while having been with your current partner for a number of years or months?
One guy responded that he would do it as a safety net and fear of commitment.
LoL the other one was asking if I was talking about me or him, b/c I guess about our current situation. After explaining that I was blogging he sent his new response. It goes: "Sometimes when your with someone for a long time the line between where you end and they begin gets blurred. You kinda lose your identity. And you need to back off a little to focus yourself again and get a new perspective. Some fresh eyes."
I told the second one I was leaning toward the safety net reason and he mentioned that guys are all about their identity and females are more wired for security. I said that could be true but it depends on what kind of person your dealing with. An independent woman would do it b/c of her lost identity in the relationship and an insecure man would do it for security.
I'm just really interested to hear any and everyone, who reads this, thoughts on the subject. Narrow minded people need not bother commenting.
I would personally consider the option of an open relationship as a means for me to have more sexual experience that I cut out of my life b/c I decided to live with a boyfriend too soon. I was never truly head over heels in love with him, but I have never felt that way with anyone. I was never big on the dating scene and I go with the flow. I don't get over dramatic about stuff and I'm easily pacified with the idea of just moving onto something else to do to busy myself. I guess I'm insecurely independent.
LoL, what I mean by that is I sometimes feel like my identity has been lost as far as the shit I put up with him but I know I don't dwell on the whole "we, us, our, together" shit. I'm only insecure b/c regardless of the financial pull I have in this relationship I wouldn't be able to handle it all on my own without really being unavailable to the prospect of a new option. So I sit until I've reached that point to say enough is enough and I rather fly solo or win the lottery. Whichever comes first, lol!
Why is it that most couples who want to do an open relationship are high school sweethearts? In my mind I think most of those couples do the whole open relationship thing b/c they are too use to each other being in their everyday life. Also b/c they realized they have cut their partying days short by sticking to the first good relationship they thought they had. They can't imagine splitting and being happy with someone else. I also think the whole open thing sounds appealing in that situation b/c it's a way to date or fool around with someone else without having to deal with breaking up with the current/original lover and then realize that may not have been the best idea and have to come crawling back.
I suppose my whole idea on the subject is centered on the fact that people are creatures of habit and don't like being alone. They need some kind of security.
Some older couples say they do the whole open thing to spice up their life. I'm sure it does, but it still ties into my thinking of "why bother breaking up when we can just openly date others while still sleeping with each other every night?" Or... one partner thinks they can finally act out their desires without feeling bad about hurting the other one. Possibly sex is just so vanilla between the two and they just want a certain sexual need to be met without losing the qualities they like in their lover otherwise.
Possibly open relationships are formulated b/c we have two bisexual partners paired or one bisexual and one heterosexual. I mean you can think of many more factors with the make up of the relationship but you get where I'm going, right? I suppose in this situation it would appear to be good for one partner to be able to showcase their desires without feeling guilty. Or just to find sexual acceptance in how they are.
Okay. We have heard relationships becoming open just b/c the man wanted a fantasy to be filled for one night and the wife/girlfriend goes along with it to keep the man intact.
Warning signs would ring in my head if my boyfriend wanted to add another female to the equation. Not b/c I'm jealous hearted but b/c it says I'm not doing something right or maybe it's time we stop using each other as crutches and just move on. I wouldn't want to openly be in a bedroom with him and some other female. A lot goes thru my mind when I see or hear that type of stuff. Like is he asking b/c I'm lacking, is he ready to split, does he really think he can bend me(manipulate) enough to do such a thing while having his cake and eating it too? Stuff like that. See, my mind is always going!
I just texted a couple guyfriends who opinions I value to give me a bit of input on their thinking of the subject. The question was worded as such: I need a guys input on why you would want an open relationship while having been with your current partner for a number of years or months?
One guy responded that he would do it as a safety net and fear of commitment.
LoL the other one was asking if I was talking about me or him, b/c I guess about our current situation. After explaining that I was blogging he sent his new response. It goes: "Sometimes when your with someone for a long time the line between where you end and they begin gets blurred. You kinda lose your identity. And you need to back off a little to focus yourself again and get a new perspective. Some fresh eyes."
I told the second one I was leaning toward the safety net reason and he mentioned that guys are all about their identity and females are more wired for security. I said that could be true but it depends on what kind of person your dealing with. An independent woman would do it b/c of her lost identity in the relationship and an insecure man would do it for security.
I'm just really interested to hear any and everyone, who reads this, thoughts on the subject. Narrow minded people need not bother commenting.
I would personally consider the option of an open relationship as a means for me to have more sexual experience that I cut out of my life b/c I decided to live with a boyfriend too soon. I was never truly head over heels in love with him, but I have never felt that way with anyone. I was never big on the dating scene and I go with the flow. I don't get over dramatic about stuff and I'm easily pacified with the idea of just moving onto something else to do to busy myself. I guess I'm insecurely independent.
LoL, what I mean by that is I sometimes feel like my identity has been lost as far as the shit I put up with him but I know I don't dwell on the whole "we, us, our, together" shit. I'm only insecure b/c regardless of the financial pull I have in this relationship I wouldn't be able to handle it all on my own without really being unavailable to the prospect of a new option. So I sit until I've reached that point to say enough is enough and I rather fly solo or win the lottery. Whichever comes first, lol!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Plans Changed
Well after realizing that the Key West trip would just be too much money we decided to go to Destin, FL. I'm excited about Destin b/c you can find reasonably priced beach condos and houses to rent for the week on FlipKey.com .
Every since we both agreed on Destin, FL I've been in a good mood on a daily basis. It has numerous advantages for the both of us. The beaches will look better, the drive won't be as long, I won't have to worry about a plane ticket(I'll just rent a car), she'll get the tan she wants and so many things. Plus, she has a classmate or two that lives there and I have at least three or four friends there that I can visit or they can come hang out with me. :o) One of them happens to be the one I mentioned in my previous blog. We've been texting like crazy and it's just cool. I take a while to warm up to people and once I find my spot, it's like a mini high.
Well I came to log into my blog to express my thinkings on a subject that has been on my mind for years. The new google account log on is retarded b/c I can't remember which e-mail I had my google account with, since I don't use it at all. You know the old saying "use it or lose it"? Well I lost it and I stopped writing down all my info on post-its so no telling.
Every since we both agreed on Destin, FL I've been in a good mood on a daily basis. It has numerous advantages for the both of us. The beaches will look better, the drive won't be as long, I won't have to worry about a plane ticket(I'll just rent a car), she'll get the tan she wants and so many things. Plus, she has a classmate or two that lives there and I have at least three or four friends there that I can visit or they can come hang out with me. :o) One of them happens to be the one I mentioned in my previous blog. We've been texting like crazy and it's just cool. I take a while to warm up to people and once I find my spot, it's like a mini high.
Well I came to log into my blog to express my thinkings on a subject that has been on my mind for years. The new google account log on is retarded b/c I can't remember which e-mail I had my google account with, since I don't use it at all. You know the old saying "use it or lose it"? Well I lost it and I stopped writing down all my info on post-its so no telling.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
The Plan for Summer
So this summer me and my friend want to go to the keys to spend a couple days. I haven't been back to the keys since 2001. I miss being there but I'm not sure I would care to live there again. Maybe have a beach house or something to go to on vacations but nothing permanent.
Oh yeah, so anyways. We want to spend a couple days in the keys but we are still trying to figure out how we are going to do this since she lives in South Dakota and I live here in North Florida. I was thinking she might fly into Jacksonville and we rent a car and drive from there to the keys, which would be an 8 hr drive. Or we both just buy direct flight plane tickets to the keys. Which the cheapest is $310 and the most is $604. For her tickets, since I just looked it up, would be between $462 and $1100. I'm debating on whether I should ask a friend to let us bunk with them or just get a hotel in another key that would be cheaper to stay in. The cheapest per night stay would be $119 a night. If we stay there 7 days it'd be 833 dollars plus you figure tax and parking decal we're looking at close to 860.
It's panning out to be a very expensive vacation. We'll see.
So the other night I was on the phone with a childhood friend, like we've known each other since 5th grade in the keys. Anyways, it's crazy how much we are a like as far as reading people, relationship status, and humor. No, I don't think that he's magically my soul mate or anything but it's just cool to see how we've grown up. I did offer to scoop him up for the key west trip since we spoke about how much we missed it.
I have yet to physically meet him since our departure from the keys. One of these days we'll make plans to meet up.
Oh yeah, so anyways. We want to spend a couple days in the keys but we are still trying to figure out how we are going to do this since she lives in South Dakota and I live here in North Florida. I was thinking she might fly into Jacksonville and we rent a car and drive from there to the keys, which would be an 8 hr drive. Or we both just buy direct flight plane tickets to the keys. Which the cheapest is $310 and the most is $604. For her tickets, since I just looked it up, would be between $462 and $1100. I'm debating on whether I should ask a friend to let us bunk with them or just get a hotel in another key that would be cheaper to stay in. The cheapest per night stay would be $119 a night. If we stay there 7 days it'd be 833 dollars plus you figure tax and parking decal we're looking at close to 860.
It's panning out to be a very expensive vacation. We'll see.
So the other night I was on the phone with a childhood friend, like we've known each other since 5th grade in the keys. Anyways, it's crazy how much we are a like as far as reading people, relationship status, and humor. No, I don't think that he's magically my soul mate or anything but it's just cool to see how we've grown up. I did offer to scoop him up for the key west trip since we spoke about how much we missed it.
I have yet to physically meet him since our departure from the keys. One of these days we'll make plans to meet up.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Wow
So I've been gone a couple months now. I finally settled into my apartment and it's a HUGE adjustment from a three bedroom two bath home to a one bedroom one bath apartment. Since I got my job last year I have been neglecting my Etsy shop due to not having enough time to just create without having to rush myself off to bed to get some kind of sleep so I can be up all night at the job. Here are pics of the things I have been up to in my past few months since the foreclosure/move.
I've been addicted to my knifty knitter! I've learned to crochet and working on a blanket right now. I finished a portrait for a co-worker. I'm still working on that skirt that is pinned to my dressform. I made that purple shawl for my mom for Christmas. That flower of polymer clay was suppose to go with the shawl but I didn't care for how it came out. I have a new hair do and things are looking decent.
My apartment still looks like I just moved in b/c I have been unable to just devote a week to putting/taking everything out where it needs to be. I unpacked almost everything but there are some boxes I need to take back to the storage unit plus figure out what else I can do without in the apartment to free up the little space we have.
I hope everyone had a lovely New Year and hopefully I won't neglect my blogs anymore!
Yay, for Nip Tuck tonight!
Ok, now I'm gone.
I've been addicted to my knifty knitter! I've learned to crochet and working on a blanket right now. I finished a portrait for a co-worker. I'm still working on that skirt that is pinned to my dressform. I made that purple shawl for my mom for Christmas. That flower of polymer clay was suppose to go with the shawl but I didn't care for how it came out. I have a new hair do and things are looking decent.
My apartment still looks like I just moved in b/c I have been unable to just devote a week to putting/taking everything out where it needs to be. I unpacked almost everything but there are some boxes I need to take back to the storage unit plus figure out what else I can do without in the apartment to free up the little space we have.
I hope everyone had a lovely New Year and hopefully I won't neglect my blogs anymore!
Yay, for Nip Tuck tonight!
Ok, now I'm gone.
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